Jersey Shore

I remember this time I was lying on the beach in New Jersey and I was thinking about how we exist and what part of God’s nature we’re all made up of and i forget how i got to the point but i remember thinking it was all Grace, the idea but also as a form of matter like we all sprang to existence because of and from and are built out of grace and in the moment I thought that, my eyes were closed and i had to focus on the sun to feel warm through the breeze but i did so i was and i was so close to God in that moment feeling every part of myself being made up of Grace and having been assembled by Love and now I’m in bed in a suburb of San Diego over three years later and that’s not how I feel because I haven’t taken the time to be with God like i was back then when I was trying to figure Him out when I wanted to learn how He worked and created and formed us to be like Him but not Him and loving someone is discovering them and I haven’t taken the time to discover Him recently I’ve been fine with Him already knowing who I am and me knowing Him to the extent that I know He knows me but I also knew who I was when I was looking for Him but that wasn’t the goal that was the byproduct of understanding Him which was more beautiful than understanding myself and I’d like to get back to that Jersey shore or maybe just anywhere with a cold wind under a warm sun to make me focus on my skin and the Grace it’s made out of.